i am cooler than you so ..hah.

I GOT A NEW ONE!

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 20:34:56 GMT

NEW LJ USERNAME-AGE! I shan't be using this one anymore. Check me out on mah new one(designed, again, by zi lovely Alli): __insatiable

...A Song about Nick...

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 03:49:01 GMT

Well, what happens when teenage angst is mixed with access to a pen and paper? Shitty poetry. Enjoy.

Talk about conflicted emotion,
My head can't even fit around the notion.
Me, in love with YOU?
Thinking you're in love with me too?!?

It makes perfect sense, though.
It explains why I hate her so.
I got jealous, but couldn't possibly make you understand,
That all I wanted was for ME to be the one holding your hand.
I was blind to my own feelings,
How was I supposed to answer the inquiry that sent me reeling?

"Why?" It's the everlasting gobstopper of the human mind.
"Why?" It will always plague the human kind.

I'm sorry that this answer comes too late,
I'm sorry, but I think this is what they call "fate."

As I sit here remembering all of our good times,
Like waiting for concerts in the front lines,
I become so sad,
but it doesn't take very long for me to return to being mad.

You're lack of compromise is infuriating,
Makes me wish this wasn't you; that you were only impersonating.

The bad part is that that's not true,
and that's why I've decided that I hate you.

"Why?" It's the everlasting gobstopper of the human mind.
"Why?" It will always plague the human kind.

Fuck you.
You only take, and don't realize that you must give, too.
So I say, "Fuck you."

You can't make a simple compromise,
I shouldn't feel that if I get "penciled in" I've won a fucking prize!
So I say, "Fuck you."

You can't realize that this is a cry for help,
That all I need is love,
That all I'm looking for is your approval.
You can't see that I want to say these things to you,
All you do is ask "Why?"

"Why?" It's the everlasting gobstopper of the human mind.
"Why?" It will always plague the human kind.

"Why?"
Well, because, "I love you."

I found a new weapon today...

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 20:38:51 GMT

I'm so angry at Nick. I'm just so done with him, but I think I still want to be with him. Maybe that's all I ever wanted. Who the hell knows. I was doing so well right after our argument, but then I came to my room today and turned on music... Yeah, so this is our convo, and I don't even know what else there is to say, he's just such an asshole. Careful, it's long.--->

EmphasizedWoot: hey!
Dookie7889: hey
Dookie7889: whatsup!?!?
EmphasizedWoot: are you gonna come to zi movies ou non? Mon ami Allen may be coming and his friend
Dookie7889: i dont think i can
EmphasizedWoot: please? you could bring miya...as long as you don't make out too m uch
EmphasizedWoot: .....? =(
Dookie7889: i dont think i can
Dookie7889: prob spring
EmphasizedWoot: yeah okay forget it
Dookie7889: mountyain i had pans
Dookie7889: im sorry
Dookie7889: and if i cant
Dookie7889: my mom is taking me to grandoms
Dookie7889: its terrible
Dookie7889: g mom is leaving for flordia
Dookie7889: and im being pused to go
Dookie7889: but I mIGHT be able to go to sping
EmphasizedWoot: whatever
Dookie7889: oh man
EmphasizedWoot: what, I just said whatever
Dookie7889: which means your pissed
EmphasizedWoot: I'm not angry
EmphasizedWoot: I'm just sick of trying anymore....this is my one real weekend until spring break and you like live at spring mountain anyway I just don't see why you can't put off your plans for like 10 minutes so I could say hi and give you your fucking christmas present before I throw it away.
EmphasizedWoot: It sounds harsh, but you hafta see it from my perspective.
Dookie7889: lol
Dookie7889: ahh wrong im!!!!
EmphasizedWoot: I don't hate you, I think the utmost contrary of you, but it just gets so hard. It's okay, calm down...I'm not psycho
EmphasizedWoot: well, that's actually debateable lol
Dookie7889: lol
EmphasizedWoot: whoa talk about silence on your part are you that annoyed?
Dookie7889: what?
EmphasizedWoot: you didn't say anythingg in response
Dookie7889: i just never know what to say to you
EmphasizedWoot: why? It's not lik eI'm exactly hard to talk to
Dookie7889: you are like wehn your like this
Dookie7889: i mean im sry i cant do everything as often as i used to
Dookie7889: and im sry you cant either
EmphasizedWoot: well, I miss you, and I'm not getting the same vibe in response (i.e. spring mountain takes precedence over me when I haven't seen you for like EVER) No shit, Sherlock, I never have ANY free time, and evry time I blow something off or miraculously have a break, you can't seem to find time for me.
Dookie7889: and whatever happened to empasizedWOO?
Dookie7889: oh man
Dookie7889: look i said my mom MIGHT let me go to spring
Dookie7889: and im probably going to grandoms
Dookie7889: shes leavin at 6 in the morning on sunday for 2 months
EmphasizedWoot: fine, I can accept that, but you also said you couldn't possibly fit me into your schedule at all this weekend, which, if you look at it from my perspective, is mucho discouraging. I'm trying to keep you as a friend but you're not willing to give a little too.
EmphasizedWoot: the bottom line is, knowing you as well as I do, if Miya wanted to do something this weekend, you would go out of your way and bend over backwards for her. That's really where all of my animosity towards her comes from, if you want to know the truth.
EmphasizedWoot: Look, can you like, call me so we can talk this out, or are you leaving soon?
Dookie7889: ok to thell you the truth
Dookie7889: i am haning with miya this weekend
Dookie7889: we made plans many weeks ago
Dookie7889: and today i am prob going to my gmom
Dookie7889: s
Dookie7889: and im never allowed out on sunday
Dookie7889: my weekendsare usally like that
Dookie7889: sat with miya sun with family
EmphasizedWoot: Fuck it.
Dookie7889: fri-missalianois
Dookie7889: which i v=kiled
EmphasizedWoot: I'm so done, you're so fucking selfish I'm so done.
Dookie7889: and im very sorry
Dookie7889: ahh
Dookie7889: crap
EmphasizedWoot: No, don't give me that bullshit.
Dookie7889: ok fine
Dookie7889: i wont give you "tha bullshit"
EmphasizedWoot: Because 1) you're not sorry, 2) I simply give up, have a nice life.
Dookie7889: look
Dookie7889: i2 tell you the truth, i hat eyou going to the hill, and i know you dont like it either, it takes up your life, and yes theres alot of stuff happinging in my life as well, but you used to call, then you got mad when i couldnt hang out, freaked, never called, weird on the net, and so i must of did the same
EmphasizedWoot: Every time I called, you were too busy to talk- I gave up.
Dookie7889: and i know you dont like miya, even tho you never met her, but shes a big part of my life too, so its not like you can sho her awy
Dookie7889: ok when you call?
EmphasizedWoot: what?
Dookie7889: when did you call
Dookie7889: i rember once
Dookie7889: and we talked for awhile
EmphasizedWoot: I don't like calling all the time I feel like a fucking nagging wife or something
EmphasizedWoot: can I call you?
Dookie7889: els on the phone
Dookie7889: and i want to talk this out on the net first
EmphasizedWoot: So was my dad, I asked him to get off. Perfect example
Dookie7889: so when you call is good again
EmphasizedWoot: only pussies argue over the internet-it's so fifth grade
EmphasizedWoot: and who says it will ever be good again? I am sure not getting that vibe.
Dookie7889: what?
Dookie7889: ok
Dookie7889: i know you dont like miya
Dookie7889: but you have no reason to
EmphasizedWoot: what the fuck! this isn't about her
Dookie7889: it is!
Dookie7889: you werent like this before her!
Dookie7889: and i know a big part isnt hanging out as often
EmphasizedWoot: it's aboujt your selfishness and unwillingness to comprimise!
Dookie7889: ahh
Dookie7889: you just come up with times and im sry icant ditch my girlfriend oy my friends if they already made plans, it would be really unfair to them
EmphasizedWoot: WHAT THE FUCK?!?!!?!
EmphasizedWoot: UNFAIR TO THEM?
EmphasizedWoot: THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.
Dookie7889: i know its unfair to them because we had made plans before!
Dookie7889: what if we had plans and i called and said id rather hang with someone else
Dookie7889: see
EmphasizedWoot: no, okay...you don't think I'd understand if you hadn't seen this person in forever, and she supposedly meant a lot to you
EmphasizedWoot: see now I see that you're full of bullshit
Dookie7889: shit
EmphasizedWoot: I try to go about it the normal way and make plans, but you never can
EmphasizedWoot: I mentioned this weekend like last week!
EmphasizedWoot: Which is precisely why I've come to the conclusion that I can't have a friend that's so unwilling to compromise or think about someone other than himself for ONCE, just once! I don't need that, especially when I'm dealing with my own depression that you seem not to give a fuck about.
Dookie7889: fuck this
Dookie7889: stop calling me shit!
EmphasizedWoot: Well, that's honestly the way you make yourself look sometimes.
EmphasizedWoot: and I don't care if you say shit about me because my self esteem couldn't get any lower (thanks, in part, to you.)
EmphasizedWoot: Can't you see, I'm fucking sick of it. I'm fucking sick of always having to be the one who tries, who always gets blown off- you were like this even BEFORE you had a girlfriend, and I realized it then, too, I just wasn't about to say anythign about it b/c I liked being (what I thought I was being) truly appreciated. Turns out that was just a bunch of shit.
Dookie7889: fuck this im sry i wasnt responding, i didnt know i was on aim
Dookie7889: lok you know it wasnt happeing like that before i got a gf
EmphasizedWoot: YES IT WAS. I always bent over backwards to make stuff happen!~!
EmphasizedWoot: can we -please talk, like, on a PHONE? I fucking loathe online argumants-- you can't make stuff sound the way you want it to.
Dookie7889: were leaving when my mom walks in
Dookie7889: and i have to go to i need to get ready
Dookie7889: im really sorry
Dookie7889: shit
Dookie7889: this sucks ass
EmphasizedWoot: Alright, well have a nice life. I seriously don't think I can take of this anymore.
EmphasizedWoot: *any of this
EmphasizedWoot: if you give a shit, call me tonight (no matter how late) and we'll talk the way real people should
Dookie7889 signed off at 5:58:44 PM.

10 Minutes 'til Chapel

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 15:05:15 GMT

So uhh... I hated looking at that old entry... I have 10 minutes unitl chapel, and nothing else to do, so yeeah. I figured you all would love to hear about my current conditions, yes? Well, I am going to start seeing a social worker/therapist person at school...isn't that exciting? Yuck. Ummm...I have an algebra test towards the end of the day today that I am going to fail MISERABLY, although I did study for like 5 hours. Yes, HOURS. And then I went to Mr. Ralston's to study but he was too sick. Maybe he won't even be there today. ;_; That would be cool/sad. I'm marrying Leo, if anyone cares. I proposed last night. Weee! His hair is so long and all cute times 10 now!!! OH MY GAWDDDD! :::obnoxious giggle::: SHHHH! DON"T TELL MEGAN- SHE WILL JEALOUS-UH! Yeah so that's my life in a nutshell...I may update later tongiht when I have more than 10 minutes! Buhbyee!

Ugh

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 01:18:32 GMT

I'm fucking depressed again. How the fuck does this work? I mean, I'm just so fucking sad like, all the time. I just can't STAY happy. And I put on a fucking act for EVERYONE because let's face it, no one gives a fuck that you have scars, no one gives a fuck that you're sad, no one gives a fuck about anything. And I'm especially mad at myself, because I'm sad for NO FUCKING REASON, whilst Alli just lost her father. I mean, jesus christ, I complain seven times more than her, and I haven't been through half as much shit as she's been through. God! I honestly hate myself sometimes. I mean, I walk around campus trying to look okay and all, but sometimes I just want to AAAHH I don't even know. I need like, some serious help, or... something. I'm just so unhappy for absolutely no fucking reason. And I feel so badly that all I do is fucking complain....maybe I should go get put on Prozac or something. I'm so sorry guys, I just don't know what to do anymore... I'm ALWAYS the strong one...I need someone stronger. AND NOW I'M FUCKING CRYING FOR NO FUCKING REASON. I HATE THIS.

Holy shit!!

Tue, 13 Jan 2004 01:41:33 GMT

I went to watch "Brit's boys" play after play practice. Holy shit they were fucking amazing. I mean, I can't even begin to put into words how amazingly talented they are. (Not to mention the one guitar player's pretty cute... Brittoni, if you are reading this, I will fucking KILL YOU if you say anything. 'Kay? 'Kay.) I mean, I was like, in space when I walked out of their rehearsal. Like, holy shit. Hey guys! Guess what? As soon as Tiffany feels a little better, she gets all lonely and shy and depressed again. WHAT THE FUCK?!? IT ISN'T SUPPOSED TO WORK LIKE THAT. Oh well, here we go again, right? Ha. I simply had to write about how freaking unbelievably amazing these guys are. I mean, I'm like, star struck. Okay I'm done... off to pretend like I'm a happy little girl. =) ?

I fucking hate being sick.

Sat, 10 Jan 2004 23:56:07 GMT

I fucking hate being sick. I went to the Health Center.
Symptoms (me): Stuffed up, inability to swallow, start of a cough.
Examination (Health Center staff): A strep test, and all the usual poking and prodding. (Tummy prodding=extremely painful~wtf?! I usually LAUGH!)
Conclusion (HC staff): Fluid in ears, post nasal drip that's irritating the back of your throat as well as the walls of your stomach. (EEEW?!?)
Diagnosis (HC staff): Not strep throat, just a common head cold. (WTF?!? THIS IS MY FIFTH DAY OF BEING SICK, HOW IS THAT JUST A COLD?!?)
Treatment (HC staff): Robitussin, throat lozenges, gargling with salt water, chloraseptic, and sudafed.
Developments of the day (me): New symptoms (on top of everything else): TOTAL loss of voice, fever, drowsiness, tear-inducing hacking cough
New treatment: Tylenol, on top of everything else

I hate this... doctors just don't understand. Everytime I get sick, I ALWAYS need a prescription, I never have a common cold. Yet I must wait unitl I've been sick for a week to get anti-biotics. Stupid assholes. Thank god I'm not as depressed anymore, otherwise this would suck even more ass. I can't even fucking swallow. I live on mashed potatos and ice cream.

Argh

Wed, 07 Jan 2004 02:21:03 GMT

Okay, so, fyi, watching VH1's "100 Hottest Hotties" doesn't exactly make you feel too great. Not much else to say- I stayed home today. Kay talk to you later.

Life's starting to look okay

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 01:09:55 GMT

Hmm... what did I do today? Well, I finished reading the Catcher in the Rye for English. It was okay, although it was told from the perspective of a depressed man, so every other sentence was explaining why this and that was depressing. It was depressing. Teehee. I finished my Bio homework... all I have left to do is H.A.M and I'm done. I have all day tomorrow and Wednesday to do that, though. I should be fine.
my throat feels better, but my neck still KILLS. Hmm...what else? I'm gonna get my haircut soon...yay! And uhh.... I may be moving out like, permanently next year--I may live at Hill, and then I'm doing a school year abroad in France my jr. year and then sr. year I want to live at Hill so I can be a prefect because it looks reallyyyyy good on college apps. So then, I'll eb of to college, and ultimately out of the house! Yay for me because that means no mommy...but that also means no puppies =( Although, i will come home on weekends and breaks and stuff... so I should be fine! Umm... that's about all of the eventful things that happened to me. ~off to talk to people on AIM.

Hmph.

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 00:46:21 GMT

I'm starting to feel a bit better about life in general. Talking to Dan helped, although he did suggest I smoke pot. Hahahaha, he's so cute. I'm not as depressed as I was, which is good, but I feel like shit. My neck kills, I have like, a swollen throat, and I couldn't move like, all day, because I was so tired. I'm so over Nick. He's one of those "toxic" friends, that you make feel good about themselves, but they never do the same for you. That's all I want, is to feel truly, genuinely loved by someone, not in a sexual way, just in genuine appreciation. He is not someone I should count on for that love. So I'm not going to count on him for that anymore. Boy, I'm so quick. Well, I babysat today again. Woo, it was just so much fucking fun. And when my mom got home, she was on the phone and she still is, primarily complaining about her boss and how she hasn't slept since 9 o'clock yesterday morning. Now, if you haven't slept for that long, shouldn't you, I don't know, go to SLEEP rather than talking on the fucking telephone?!?! And Chloee missed her s0 much and was s0 excited to see her, and she practically ignored her because she's on the phone. It was so depressing to see. I seriously cannot stand that woman most of the time. God, I'm so bitter and depressed. I must be a helluva nice person to talk to, huh?
~Off to do homework.

OH MY FUCKING GOD

Sun, 04 Jan 2004 01:50:25 GMT

Auto response from Dookie7889 (8:37:17 PM): I could never explain how great my girlfriend is, never even come close, I do anything just to make her smile, because when she smiles, it makes me feel great.She is the greatest person ever, and i love the little things she does, they make my day Infact, she makes my day.Theres no real way to explain how she makes me feel,She is just the greatest person ever. This is the best way in the entire world to start the new year, and im having a feeling its going to be one of the greatest years ever,Much love Miya

HOW THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MAKE ME FEEL?!?!
"She is the greatest person ever"...hmm yeah, so tell me, was I even in the running, or what?

AND GUESS WHAT! I COULD FUCKING GO ON ABOUT HOW FUCKING SELFISH HE IS, AND HOW SHALLOW, AND HOW MUCH I'VE DONE FOR HIM AND HE'S NEVER DONE SHIT FOR ME, AND HOW I'VE KNOWN HIM WAY LONGER THAN SHE HAS AND EVEN HELPED HIM TO DECIDE WHICH FUCKING HIGH-SCHOOL TO GO TO, AND JUST RANT AND RAVE, AND HE WOULD NEVER KNOW BECAUSE HE'S TOO FUCKING SELFISH TO MAKE SURE HE "CHECKS UP ON ME" IN MY LIVEJOURNAL AS SOME PEOLE DO! IT'S NOT EVEN LIKE I WANT TO BE HIS FUCKING GIRLFRIEND, IT'S JUST THAT I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HIS GODDAMN BEST FRIEND AND SOME HOT PIECE OF ASS COMES ALONG AND SHE'S ALL HE FUCKING THINKS ABOUT?!?!?!?! HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT WORK??!!! I WILL NEVER FUCKING CALL HIM AGAIN. EVER. FUCKING ASSHOLE.

.:.Random Update.:.

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 22:54:52 GMT

So... I got a letter from Christina today!! Oh my gosh that made me so happy and excited and yeeeah... Meg and Pam slept over last night...we had oodles o' fun, and we went to H&H and then to Clemens avec ma souer. It was fun! (Am I redundant or what?) Ummmmmm.... what else, what else? Oh yes, my scooter is fucking TOTALED because I was too goddamn stubborn to use the friggin brakes while going down a gigantic hill at Waterworks Park with Alli. The day she gets one, I crash mine. How special. I have a big cut/scrape thing on my left hand now, similar to the one I had on my right after falling down the stairs of the library (tee-hee), a bruised and battered knee (on my right leg), huge skinnage going on near my right elbow, as well as a bruise on my left thigh. Ouch. Don't you just LOKVE hearing me complain?! It must be so nice. Oh! And also, I haven't seen Nick in forever and I thought we were cool so I called him a couple times to hang out and he always seems to have plans... He goes back on Monday, so I guess we're not gonna see each other. Fine with me. Hmph I just got myself all worked up, which isn't that hard these days. I have diagnosed myself with clinical depression. Yay for me.

.:.Wow, I'm starting to do this regularly!.:.

Sat, 27 Dec 2003 03:48:59 GMT

Soo... it rained. No, wait, correction- it poured. I was so mad! However, my anger was offset by Megan's gift- a SOMETHING CORPORATE T-SHIRT! OHMYGOODNESS how exciting! Woo....I'm really tired.... Well, today, Alli was supposed to come over and practice riding my scooter with me, but she was kidnapped by the much-beloved(by both of us, and the rest of the non-stupid world) Holly. It's okay though, Alli's probably had more than enough of Tiffi recently. Oh! And did I mention that Chloee was supposed to go to school while my mom was at work today? Oh, I didn't? Oops. Yeah... she was SUPPOSED to, but she stayed home! And my mom is working tomorrow and Sunday, so I'll be staying at home, BABYSITTING all weekend, while my mom is at work. (My dad is also at work, in D.C. for 8 days at some huge "auto" show- you can tell it's big because they call it an "auto" show, as opposed to the meager "car" show.) THIS WEEKEND WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FILLED TO THE BRIM WITH FRIENDS, I.E. Alli, Nick, Pam, Megan, and Dan, and possibly Dana! Argh I feel so out of control- I have no ability to make any choices concerning my weekend- hopefully the week will be better...speaking of (the week), I NEED A NEW YEAR'S EVE PARTY TO GO TO!!!!!! PLEASE COMMENT IF YOU HAVE ONE THAT I COULD POSSIBLY ATTEND! So yeeah, that's about my current status in a nutshell, as if you care!

.:.OHMYGAWD I'M UPDATING!.:.

Wed, 24 Dec 2003 03:24:43 GMT

Oh my gawd! I'm actually updating this stupid thing... so now what do I say? I went to Alli's today(hehe I just rhymed)...we just chilled, it was fun...she made cards for her mommy from Maddie and Dee...they're really cute! And then tonight my family and I went to La Fonta(i)na(Fontana or Fontaina?) for my mommy's birthday dinner...yep, she's forty-two...she's officially OLD. Hmm... what else, what else? Oh! Tomorrow I'm 'a-goin' over to Megan's house and giving her her presents, and I'm getting mine!! Weeee~! And if the rain isn't too bad, we're gonna go ride horsies at her barn! OHMYGOD I HAVEN'T RIDDEN IN SO LONG AND IF IT RAINS I'M GOING TO SAY THE EFF WORD!!! I'm s0o excited! So, that's my life at the moment, not too interesting... I'm really just trying to be there for Alli as much as possible without suffocating her because even though she always makes fun of me and tells me how nobody likes me, I still love her! =D (And if I suffocated her, she wouldn't be around, and since I love her that would be a bad thing!)

.:.Umm....hi?.:.

Sat, 15 Nov 2003 02:31:13 GMT

Hey guy(s)! (I dunno how many people actually read this anymore) Well, I guess I'm pretty much settled in at Hill, even though I'm not really friends with a lotta people... I miss all of my old friends so much...it's so scary, I can see how we're growing apart....it's so surreal, ti's like i'm watching friends lose touch and I'm not doing anything about it... it's like i WANT to be depressed. I am sooo stressed out right now... i'm like, at my limit. i just broke out some old school rap...it feels good to listen to something that isn't all flowery like SoCo....I have 3 tests tomorrow, i had HAM and English quizzes today, along with a Bio test. My first exam is on Wed. I'm s0 frekaing out- I HATE it! I'm really really sad right now, with this old music.... it makes me miss everyone, and the Eminem makes me think of Dan, who is now a total and complete pothead which makes me even more upset. I'm so depressed.

Wee.

Sun, 24 Aug 2003 23:27:57 GMT

Tiff hasn't updated in a while because Tiff is a loser. Therefore, I [I being Alli], have decided to post a detailed..thing..on her life.

Tiffi was born, and then she grew a bit, and now she's 14, and she's going to the Hill School to get snob lessons.--I mean, to expand her learning horizons so she can go to Harvard and become a lawyer.

o.o This is boring. Megan and Dana are here [at Tiff's house] too. Muaha. ..Ha. o_o Megan just said, "My name is Fred, would you get in bed?" o_O;;...

.:.WOO.:.

Thu, 07 Aug 2003 00:29:30 GMT

Wow I just got back from my trip to... ready?... Limestone, Maine. Where the hell is that, you ask? It's about 2 and a half miles from the Canadian border, in NOWHERESVILLE! The only thing that is there is farm country...I mean, seriously, like NO civilization. And apparently there are a TON of moose up there, but we didn't see ANY (we really wanted to see one) Yeah, so we didnt see ANY until we went ona special expedition for the sole purpose of seeing one, and we did (I spotted it first so I won 10 bucks)but it was just ONE and it was a baby one with no antlers, but it was still cute. So anywhoo, WHY was I out in the middle of nowhere? Well, i was at work... what type of show was i working, exactly? (see me trying to build suspense?) A Phish concert. Hahaha it was a bunch of stoned/drunk hippies...it was s-0 funny! The only thing that sucked was that i went to bed around 4am every night (morning?) and got up like 5 hours later....but i dealt with it lol....but ohmigosh the customers were so funny.... this one guy tried to trade me weed for fries (he was hiccuping throughout his proposal, due to drunken-ness...it was s0o0o0o funny) And then this one really hot volunteer (we had a volunteer group work for like an hour-that's how they got into the concert for free) and i started flirting, and a little while later me and this girl (it was a group of 4) got on the subject of age...i asked what their ages were and turns out i was flirting witha 20 y/o(..woops hehe) anywhoo, i told them all to guess MY age (they were all from 20-22) cuz these other volunteers guessed me to be a high school senior, so i wanted to know what they thought...the guesses were 21, 22, 20, and 17-18(from Brandon, the guy I was flirting with). I was hysterically laughing and the one girl's like "what...are you like 14 or something?" and i just nodded and continued laughing. The look on Brandon's face was absolutely PRICELESS...his jaw dropped, and he was in like shock...it was so awesome...lol....so yeeeah it was a pretty funny trip....and it was plainly fun, lol...on our way home we drove down the coast and went to Kennebunk Port, wher the Bushes vacation and stuff...it's so gorgeous! So yeah, it was a cool trip... OH! and i learned Phish is a "jam band" every song was like 30 minutes long, cuz they just make stuff up as they go along, the "jam"....they do have a few real songs, though....oh, and some pretty MAJOR news...I'm going to tHe WaRpEd ToUr with Nick on Friday.... woop wooop!! I can't wait!!!!!!! K I'll talk to ya all later....
*~Love Always~*
~Tiff

.:.Long Time no..erm, Update.:.

Wed, 23 Jul 2003 18:29:40 GMT

y-0! I haven't updated in a while, I know, but NOTHING eventful has happened...absolutely nothing update-worthy. Argh I miss seeing everyone! I think I'm gonna have a party... that'd be fun! WOOp WOOp! Hmmm....I'm reading my first book for The Hill and it positively SUCKS!!! It's about talking rabbits, for Christ's sake! Talking rabbits that need to leave their field and find somewhere else to live because the field is being developed. Right now, they're freaking out about a lack of women to hump.... just like all men! Ha it's actually pretty funny. You guys have got to save me, that has been my summer- TALKIN F-ING RABBITS! Oh just thought you guys should know, I'm a vegetarian again! =D I was talking to this lady and she said that if my hair falls out again (as it did before after I was vegetarian for 6 months) I can take a couple strands to the doctor and they can analyze it and tell me what nutrient I'm lacking... plus, I'm gonna start taking supplements especially made to replace meat for vegetarians! Hmm.... nothing else is really new... I'm a born-again Hanson fan =D lol... good for me! Yeah, so guys, call me, "throw me kissies", etc! I am craving human interaction! (No offense to MEg or Nick, but I want to see all the people I never really saw outside of school!!!!) Okiee I'll talk to you guys later!

*~Love Always~*
~Tiff

.:.Sooo.:.

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 04:32:07 GMT

I went to work tonight... it wasn't that great, people weren't really eating too much.

Last night I slept over at Meg's house. We had SO much fun... Since my trip to the shore got cancelled because Chloee's sick, I'mma have her over all weekend. See, we just got a volleyball net and she loves volleyball and I can't wait to play! Lol.

... and then on the 18th I'm gonna go to the Extreme Days with Nick, since I can't make it to his party- we're gonna throw our own! Lol...

Oh and Nina's didn't really work out because she kinda wants someone to do stuff when she's not there, and it's way too big and lonely for me to be on her farm alone.. Oh well...

Speaking of animals, we took Mozart to the vet and he has an ear infection in his left ear and he also tested positive for lyme disease. So now I hafta clean his ear, put medicine in it, and give him pills for his Lyme... hmmm fun stuff.

Ya know, I'm watching Boy Meets World, and I'm really starting to be totally sick of being single. I know I've said this before, but I just want someone to love me for me, support me, someone that I can just be totally comfortable around, someone that lets me be ME. I guess that's too much to ask of a guy our age or whatever. I don't know, I just need someone that's there for me. i mean, Megan is, but I just need that in a guy I guess. Argh. I hate this. I guess I'll get over it. I need to meet some new guys I think. Speaking of... I just heard there's this new teen club in Chemistry in Manayunk... anyone wanna go get some guys with me? Haha woop woop girls' night out! Call me!~!!!!!!
Thanks for listening to me rant- feel free to "throw me a kiss" lol kk ill tty later!

*~Love Always~*
~Tiff

.:.The Boredom of Summer.:.

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 18:40:53 GMT

Okay... I think I'm done with summer. Haha not really, I just want to SEE people... I miss you guys!! Call me so we can hang out ASAP, and you can save my life... lol...

Today, I woke up to the sound of my mom frantically screaming "CHLOEE!!" She couldn't find my sister ANYWHERE, and she was positively hysterical. She called Chelsea and Alli, Karl, Chelsea, and their aunt all came to help us. My mom went in search of my dad, to see if Chloee was with him, because he didn't have his cell on. I asked my mom how many pairs of shoes Chloee had- I was being the calm, logical one for once. She was flipping out and screeching "I dont know!" Why did I ask her this? Hello, you un-detectival folks. If my dad had taken her, and not a stranger, would she not have shoes on? I felt so smart asking that! =D Yeah, but Chels and my mom arrived at McDonalds and found my sister and dad calmly eating lunch. It was pretty funny.. lol. So that's all I've done so far today, aren't I productive? Maybe I'll have someone over tonight or go somewhere.. call me!~!

*~Love Always~*
~Tiff

.:.LaLaLa.:.

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 03:53:04 GMT

Hmm....not a bad week, not a bad week...

On Monday, a FedEx guy came to my door. And what did he have for me? A brand new, FREE eMachines computer!~! Ohmigosh I was so happy! The computer was in response to this letter of gratitude that you had to write to a company for English... I couldn't believe it!!! It has 1.4 ghz!!! omg it's s0 fast!!! Woo!

Tomorrow I'm going to Nina's....yay!! I'm finally gonna start with her... I can't wait!! (She's the owner of the dressage and event farm i discussed earlier... lol)

And this weekend, (Saturday & Sunday) I'm working with John (not Nick cuz he's goin to Puerto Rico--grrr) at the Near Fest in NJ. It's an alternative rock concert. It should be fun, and busy-- 1800 people, and we're the only food! $$$!

Not too much else is happening.....I'll talk to ya guys later~I'm gettin tired!

*~Love Always~*
~Tiff

.:.Last Day.:.

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 03:49:58 GMT

Whoa... I'm done. Done. It's over. My entire middle school career is over. I've completed 6th, 7th, and 8th grades successfully. I'm about to leave my school environment for another one; leave all of my PV friends behind. It's such a surreal feeling. It's indescribable. But, as Jenn pointed out, calling something "indescribable" is actually describing it, so I don't know WHAT I'm feeling. I cryed my eyes out from the time I left my homeroom at the end of the day until half of the bus ride home. It was so sad- all the teachers came out and waved at the busses (causing me to cry even more). My last day of school was composed of the awards assembly,and tehn they closed off the eight grade hallway and we all got to mill around and eat and stuff- it was very cool. As for awards, I got the Creative Expressions Award, the Geometry Award, and the French Award. I also got one for "maintaining a 3.5 GPA during middle school, and getting at least an 85% on the IOWA standardized tests, but lotsa people got that, it wasn't really a biggie. And, as for all of that stuf fI was worried about, (ya know all the projects and tests, etc.) I did fine, and I think I got straight A's for the 4th marking period. Actually, I know I did, except I don't know about music. (Like I really care)

I went to Julian's party tonight. It was fun, except I'm allergic to mosquito bites. And most of the party was outside. And I got eaten to DEATH and I'm all swollen. That kinda sucks. I played volleyball, went on the swing set, and then just "chilled." It was a pretty cool party, it just smelled HORRIBLE in Julian's house, cuz all of the guys were all sweaty and gross. But I still had a lot of fun, and all of the people there were pretty cool. And! Guess what! Dan's mom gave me a ride home, and I directed her to my house all the way from Julian's!~! Ohmigod that is so amazing for me! I was so proud of myself! I am so bad with directions, but I did it! Score! Hmmm.... what else? Notta lot. That was my day in a nut shell. You know you loved reading about it! Lol aiight well I'mma go get ready for bed. But at least I don't hafta get up tomorrow!!! That is so weird, it still feels like I gotta get up tomorrow morning....I love summer! Lol- Okay well I'm out!

*~Love Always~*
~Tiff

.:.Almost Done.:.

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 03:44:14 GMT

Wow! It FINALLY feels like the end of the year! I'm so happy....no more ANYTHING! All that's up ahead is a summer of working and hanging out with friends and having FUN!~! Maybe I'll find a summer fling....I'm so sick of being single =/ ..... oh well....so yeeah what else? Notta lot! I'm finally HAPPY....whew I made it!

.:.Woo.:.

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 03:42:07 GMT

School's almost over!!!! Yaaaay!!! But now I have more time to think about this guy that I think I like, which is driving me INSANE cuz it's not a good thing....oh well......

lol i made all you PV people a suprise....ur gonna LOVE it!....i hafta see what the principals say about it though...
umm what else....i have the second part of my geometry final on monday.....almost done!! scoreee! Ummm sooo......

not much to say....my room's messy, so I gotta clean it sometime soon lol....i think i'm gonna do that tonight....i already studied for geometry but i'm still gonna study some more....aiight well i'll stop rambling now, since there isn't a lot to say....cya!

*~Love Always~*
~Tiff

.:.Woop.:.

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 03:40:34 GMT

Yes!~! I have the day off! Why? Because i finished my homework last night- I did all that I could on my elements journal, and I finished my 14-page review packet for geometry! Guess what time I went to bed last night! Oh, about umm 4:30 am.....hahaha why, you ask? Because I woke up at 4:00 pm yesterday... i dont know why, that's the longest i've eve slept, but yeeahhh....hahaha

On Friday I went to the carnival wif Alli..fun stuff! I rode the bull~ omg it was HILARIOUS!! I lasted like, 25 seconds....hahaha oh well at least it was funny.... Hmmm......... what else, what else.... oh! Chelsea and Joe had serious sticks up their asses when they came to pick us up...see, we were standing at the wrong sign b/c all anne said was that it was a sign that said stuff about the park, so when we got dropped off, my dad n alli n I naturally assumed it was the sign that said the name of the park. So we stood there for like, half an hour and these guy sstarted getting high and saying that they need to f*ck somebody, so I was like Ali let's go back into the carnival again... So we get into the carnival and all of a sudden we hear Joe shout "ALLI! YOU ARE IN SOME SERIOUS SHYT! LET'S GO!" and then Chelsea and Joe both proceed to yell at us and say how they have better stuff to do with their night....and Chelsea yelled about how it was bullshyt that my phone died, even though it DID during the ride over...but right before i got home, i apologized and thanked them and stuff, and then I got online and what does Alli tell me? That Anne and Karl PAID Chelsea and Joe to go get us...so really, they had no right to yell!!!!!!! Argh it reallyyyyy pissed me off...

Ah, okay I'm done my ranting, I'm gonna go start studying for:
1. French Oral Exam
2. Social Studies Test
3. Geometry Test
4. Geometry Final
5. Word-a-day Test

....Hmm fun stuff!! At least I'm done the actual homework part of things! I'll talk to you guys later! LYL!

*~Love Always~*
~Tiff